A Fresh Breath of Sanity

Do you have a favorite store? I mean, a store that when you walk into it, you feel as if the world is peaceful & stress-free? It is as if this store was put here just for you to enjoy and bask in its tranquility and beauty? I have two such stores; Boarders and Anthropologie. I heart these stores. Just by walking in I can feel my burdens lift off of my shoulders. I love their smell, their quiet atmospheres, their pretty things that call out my name.

Let's start with Boarders. I love the smell of books. I always have. I can't describe it. Books smell different than just regular paper. I love knowing that I can stay in there for hours and be transported into thousands of different worlds. It is so hard for me to just choose one world to be transported into.

Then there is Anthro. Be still my heart. I walk into that store and the world seems right. I wish I had endless amounts of money to decorate my house with all of the wonderful, modern-vintage, and beautiful things they have in that store. One day my friends, one day. And then there is their clothes. I love how feminine and graceful they all look. I love the bold prints and vibrant colors. Just talking about it makes me sigh and day dream.

I realized these feelings today. I walked into Boardes and hated that I had to just by the APA writing manual. What a waste of a trip. So ladies, what are your favorite stores?

What I have planned for my 5 week Christmas vacation!

As of Wednesday I will be on Christmas vacation! YAY! I want to shout it from the rooftops! So what am I going to do for 5 weeks you ask?? Well...
* Work
* Finish my thesis
* Craft (make Christmas presents)
* Donate time at the Cache Valley Soup Kitchen
* Organize my storage room
* Do an early spring cleaning of my house (I am going to organize and chuck stuff I do not need!!!!!)
* Study for Comps (maybe this should be at the top of my list)
* Spend more time with Dev and Hank!

I CANNOT WAIT!

Yep! Found another one!

So I stumbled on this WONDERFUL and AMAZING craft blog today! Shh.. don't judge I found it during class. Can you say senioritis? If you have a couple hours today "check check check it out"! http://diaryofacraftaholic.blogspot.com This is what I plan on doing for craft week this week. Isn't it beautyful?

Family Pictures

Family pictures are here. My dear friend, Megan was gracious enough to take our pics last weekend. There are some fun ones!

It's CRAFT night!!

I am so excited! Every Thursday I try to do crafts. It's about the only night that I get to do them. So tonight my friend Liz and I are making these:



I got red, green, and champagne ornaments at the Dollar Tree. Hopefully it turns out just as cute!

My current sewing project is this pillow:



My leaves are mainly green, navy, yellow, and orange. I am just in the beginning stages right now. When I get it done I will post a pic of all the pillows I have made!

A Hanky Panky Post

We have some new pics of Hanky! He is getting so big. He is almost 7 months old and weighs 70 lbs. He is the biggest boy! I know you all think I am crazy, but I just love him!


Hank's first snow!! He LOVES it! He likes that he can run around and make it fly up. He ran around our yard for about 30 mins making the snow fly.






His dad abuses him.


Yes, he still sleeps like this. So weird.




His mom abuses him too.

Spinning out of control

Have you ever had those moments where everything in your life is upside down? Nothing fits. Nothing is working out. And you feel as if there is nothing you can do. You are helpless. Nothing you do is right. Nothing you say is taken correctly. And all you can do is cry and try to console yourself with TV shows and cookies. I have felt like that for months. Out of control. I can't connect with anyone. I cannot be consoled. I feel utterly alone. And it is probably my fault that I have no real connection with anyone right now. I have friends who over a year ago were mad at me for reasons and now it feels like we are just pretending to be friends. I have friends who no matter how much I ask to help them won't let me in. I have friends who I don't know if I can call them friends because we have never had a real conversation. We have been enemies from the start and I don't even know why. I have friends at school who are so busy with school things and being friends with each other that I feel as if I am imposing on them. I have friends that because they have moved away we have lost touch and I cannot bring myself to pick up a stupid phone. And then there is my dear sweet husband who no matter how hard I try I always say the wrong thing and hurt him. I struggle with having a real conversation with my family. It feels like I don't know what is going on in their lives and it is just easier to be oblivious than to make an effort. And I get so mad because I feel justified that I tried to be to be a friend. I offered to help. I struck up a conversation. I made you muffins. So I feel like I am the victim and can be mad, when that is not even the truth. And I don't want to feel that way anymore. I am tired of being alone. I am tired having no real connection with anyone. I am tired of not being included. I have never been like this in my whole life. I have always had lots of friends and a few very good, no best friends. I have always tried to be a good friend. I feel as if I have alienated everyone from my life. I have done this because of many reasons: it's easier to be by yourself, school, laziness, pride... To those of you in my life.. I am sorry. Please let me back in. I want to be your friend. I will try harder. There is nothing more I can say but please.